Rose Greene | Testimony a lifetime of hiding the pain and shame of childhood sexual abuse through sex, drugs, alcohol, rehab hospitals and religion, I was convinced that God would never love or forgive me and that I must be a child of Satan. My life was like a rubber band ball, growing bigger and tighter with each sexual encounter, each lie, each fake smile, each ruined friendship, each ruined marriage. I didn’t know how to confront the problems in my life so I became part of them, walking according to my own desires, my own lusts, and flattering people for the sake of gaining an advantage. I stuffed the shame to preserve my life. Always smiling on the outside; inside, I was dead.

But God demonstrated His own love for me in that while I was yet a sinner, Christ died for me. Following the end of my third marriage, I found myself 800 miles away from my son, the very thing God used to show me what real love is, in a relationship with a man to whom I was not yet married. Guilt and anger overwhelmed me, yet I refused to go home. The day I physically shook my 4-year old daughter out of my anger was the day I knew something had to change. Married for the fourth time now, the Holy Spirit was working in my husband’s heart. He suggested we visit churches. I was desperate for help. When a pastor in a church we were visiting read Matthew 11:28-29 and told me I could find rest for my soul, I knew I was home. At Christ’s invitation, I laid my burdens, my past, and my shame before Him at the cross. Jehovah Rapha, the God who heals, was now my Lord and Savior and my life would be forever changed.

For the last 21 years, I’ve clawed my way through my past with Him in the lead, learning how to be a godly wife, mother, and friend. Although sometimes difficult to accept God’s love, I learned by studying His Word that He not only knows my name, but He knit me together in my mother’s womb, He knows the hairs on my head, and He has inscribed me in the palms of His hands. Never again will I walk alone. Never again will I feel the guilt and shame of my past. Second Peter 1:3 tells me that His divine power has given me everything I need pertaining to life and godliness.

Today, I enjoy serving in our church as a teacher in our elementary school ministry on Sunday mornings and as a greeter on Saturday evenings. My husband and I enjoy being part of the Richland Creek motorcycle ministry together. We have a burden for couples who are struggling with marriage and I have a special place in my heart for unsaved girls and women who are using their bodies in a way that dishonors them and our Lord Jesus Christ. My husband will soon graduate from Southeastern Seminary with a degree in Biblical Counseling and I will graduate from our Richland Creek 17-month Counseling program. We look forward to serving together in the Counseling Ministry as the Holy Spirit enables us to help others see the truth of God’s Word and its application to their lives.Call me (Rose Greene 919-624-4838); I would love to share my journey and the love of my Lord Jesus Christ with you. In Him I live and move and have my being (Acts 17:38).